I'm not a Buddhist, I just play one on TV

This week has been so, so busy that I've been working on the same post for 7 days, but I've decided to scrap it for this one.
I came upon, this article a few weeks ago.
http://www.nytimes.com/2008/05/15/garden/15buddhists.html?_r=2&oref=slogin&oref=slogin

If you go to this link there's an article about this Buddhists couple. They live in a hut in Arizona and they've been together for a decade or so. They are never more than 15 feet away from each other for 10 years. 10 years. Never. They travel together, all over the world, they work together, the apparently go to the bathroom on this toilet in their 1 room hut in the AZ desert together. They read in bed together (the same book). I don't know why, but these people absolutely fascinate me. There have been 2 more articles I've read about them other places. One was an "imagined" conversation between the two principals and is actually really funny.
http://www.vanityfair.com/ontheweb/blogs/daily/2008/05/nell-scovell-wh.html#more
and the other is a couple trying the whole "Absolutely never more than 15 feet apart" on their own for 24 hours. It was also pretty amusing.
http://www.slate.com/id/2192282/
The point being that these people are just so interesting to me. Yes, part of me wants to mock and ridicule them. Part of me falls in line with many people mentioned in the article and their skepticism. The cliche of the beautiful young "student" and the older "teacher", they aren't really "together" so much as she is following him around like a puppy dog doing whatever he says.
And did I mention, they are celibate? They say in 10 years, they have not had sex.
I'm not sure what it is that just makes me so drawn to this story. Maybe it's the fact that they are a "non-traditional" family. Like I'm in a "non-traditional" family. Like gay and lesbian families are "non-traditional". It makes me feel a little special, in my own mind at least. It makes me feel different and I love feeling different. I love feeling unique. And it usually comes crashing down on me that I'm not particularly any of those things. And of course, my family is not "out". There are only a handful of people who know about my situation, to all others, we are about as traditional as you can get! One child, first marriage for both, living in the suburbs. But we're not that traditional and I kind of like that sometimes. And sometimes not. I mean, we're not non-traditional simply for the sake of being non-traditional. It's how it works best, most of the time.
The other thing that maybe makes me so interested, is the fact that they are celibate. There's something in there about his "laying hands" on her as a doctor would a patient, and she mentions that sex is a "low practice". A low practice. And there are apparently other activities that foster their sense of intimacy.
I've been thinking about celibates recently. I've been thinking about 2 years of sexual energy built up and how it generally does not really effect me, but when I would be around or go out on a date with E., then I was so aware of it and it seemed to drive me in a way. It was something that was really wonderful and really exciting and then, when nothing came of it, how infuriating and frustrating it was for a period, followed by this period of release and calm and feeling very much at peace. I've had similar experiences when I've been around people I'm attracted to and nothing comes of it. (And nothing EVER comes of it, because these aren't people who are aware of my feelings.) But this build up followed by this wonderful release, it seems secure in a way I'm not sure sex is. It doesn't feel like it during phase 2 (the frustrating part) but almost always, when phase 3 hits, it's a very satisfying calm and centeredness.
Now, I am not saying I'm becoming celibate! Let us all make that perfectly clear. When I was in my mid-late 20's, I decided to become a vegetarian. I decided that I could probably lose more weight if I did. I spent 2 days telling people I was a vegetarian and that I would not eat meat again. I think it lasted about 12 hours and then I was at McDonald's chowing down on 2 double cheeseburgers! And then for a month I had to explain to people at work why the "vegetarian" was eating a ham on wheat. But hey, if I proclaim myself celibate, maybe I'll end up having sex! :)
I'm saying that there are these moments when my body is at peace. And for me, it's not letting go of aggression and anger so much as letting go of stress and the need to think. I think A LOT! I don't say this to myself appear intelligent. It's more of a hyper thing. If I am trying to be still and be calm, it takes me 10 minutes to get away from the place where I am thinking about what I have to do at work and what time is McG's field trip and on and on but once I do, it's so joyous and wonderful. I've always said I'm a laid back person. I'm not sure that's true. I don't get angry that much. I let things happen as they happen, but I do worry. And internally, I thrive on stress and the adrenaline that comes from being disorganized and pulling out a deadline at the last minute. But this peace, which is pretty new to me, is so amazing. I felt it when K. hypnotized me. She talked me through to a place where my body felt so heavy and my mind was clear and when it was over, I felt very relaxed. This past week I took a yoga class. My first. It was amazing. It was at my office and it was wall to wall people but when it was over, I felt very relaxed (and tired!). In a week of being at 2 jobs 12 hours a day. plus doctors appt. and swimming lessons, it was so wonderful.
Maybe craving these feelings is why I've recently been wishing I still smoked pot. I got the same feeling when I did and it was actually easier to procure that trying to get this feeling through meditation or anything else! Now, again, I am NOT saying I'm going to start smoking pot. It's illegal (right or wrong) and at this point in my life, I would have absolutely no idea where to even get any. I guess I just worry that if I am able to get myself to this place of the wonderful feelings, will I eventually have to work that much harder to hit it? Will by body begin to build up an immunity to the calmness, Zen whatever the hell it is, so instead of doing X-Y-Z for 15 minutes to get there, will it take me 35? What if it does? Well, sometimes I'm working so hard at everything, I really want to be lazy when it comes to myself. Maybe that's part of the issue. If I can spend a hour looking for M's wallet and an hour looking for McG's school bag, why can't I spend 30 minutes on my own well being? Why do I always come last? I guess according to the freaky Buddhists, I'm not supposed to concern myself with self at all, is the impression I got. But I'm not a Buddhist, I'm not a celibate, I'm not a vegetarian. I'm trying to make strides in my life and I do feel a certain self awareness coming over me. (Self indulgence? Self involvement? who knows.) I just know that after the stressful week from hell, where at 1 point I was sitting in traffic, honking my horn, screaming at this woman and giving her the finger, (to qualify she was an idiot!) and another where I've got everything in my purse poured out on my car seat, crying because I couldn't find an insurance card and it was the 18th crappy thing that had happened THAT DAY, I could use a little calm and peace and it's all totally legal.